nights like tonight make me re-realize how lucky i am to be alive and have great people in my life.

is pretty overrated. I mean it's cool and all but it's just so trendy/indie. I wore my high waisted sorts and felt like a tool. haha it was nice to just dance with morgan and nikol though, but we did just want some freaking hip hop. i'm pooped. i think i;m going to make myself a pb&j and watch some "It's always sunny in Philapephia" (the most offensive hilarious sitcom ever created).


LA tomorrow with mom, let's see how many fights we get in.

9 days left.

JUSTIN NOZUKA.
enough said.

i was a sales girl and not a cashier...i've been helping ruthie out when shes too busy. i've been taking her appts to different departments and helpng them. I LOVE it. seriously, and i have a knack for it too. i sold over 300 dollars to a lady with the two cutest little kids today...kids stuff is way cheap too, so she bought a lot. that's a lot pink dresses for little savannah and a lot of quiksilver for little blane. they were adorable. i didn't even get the commission for it, and that's okay. i totally want to do something like this for a living.

when we go to school, we need to all become regular bloggers.

i'm at the point of realization in which it dawns on me that i will be moving away from everything i know in a little over a month. and i'm sad. i'm excited of course. but it's starting to hit me that i won't see the important people in my life daily. and that is pretty scary.

night all the time : )

i am so freaking ready for san francisco.

is that i'll always be a poly girl at heart.
and i don't want to be one of those losers who can't get past high school.
ps.
my favorite part of the banquet tonight was when coach V said that i truly bled orange and green.
: )

it's times like these when i feel gross and i'm sick, that i'm nervous about not living at home next year. i'm going to be so helpless when i'm ill.

i'm so annoyed right now i can't even go there.


edit: nevermind,

it is impossible for me to decide if i want to play softball in college or not. one day i can't wait to be done, the next i can't imagine being done. i was on the field in warm ups in thousand oaks and iw as tearing up just thinking about having to walk away from it all...

i think i'm going to email the sfsu coach.

it really bothers me when people dwell in self-pity.

i'm going to be a gator next year : )
yay.

too bad i'm freaking terrified. i never thought i'd be this nervous about college.

i don't think i've ever been this excited for spring break before.
i can't WAIT to go to sf. i really hope i like the campus. i'm pretty sure if i even like it a little bit i'll go. the last few days have really shown me that i need to be out of the house next year. i feel like my relationship with my mom MIGHT improve if i never have to be around her...as awful as that sounds. disneyland/angels game is going to be so fun too. i definitely didn't realize that prom is coming up soon too. whoa. yay i'm excited. and a little terrified/mainly pumped for the fact that we're graduating in a mere 2ish months.

bullshit bullshit bullshit bullshit
bullshit bullshit bullshit bullshit
bullshit bullshit bullshit bullshit
bullshit bullshit bullshit bullshit
bullshit bullshit bullshit bullshit
bullshit bullshit bullshit bullshit

and i'm sick of it. and i want it to be over. i'm tired of being screwed over. i just want to be done with high school sports, they take up way too much time with not enough reward.

i'm very tired.
i'm going to be very tired for the next four months.
i'm quite excited for our laughlin trip next week.
it's going to be a nice mini softball vaca with my girls.
i miss trevor.
and morgan.
and nikol.
and my sister.
and brett and all the boys that make me laugh so much.
i'm starting to lose patience with a lot of things.
i do a lot in my life. i'm okay with being the hermit once in awhile. even though i'm not really a hermit, i just get tired.
this school year is going by really quickly.



whoa,
random.

i complain and complain about things, and then God smacks me up side the head and i realize how lucky i am.

i'm so incredibly over the monotonous routine of high school.